Oops a daisy. Went to Wells-next-the-sea on Saturday for a walk. Hadn’t been before. The Beach Cafe is lovely and the staff are really nice. For me the USP is definitely this 👇
Doggy Heaven
The beach is beautiful there. Clean, sandy…
This chap was swimming, then noticed the two seals and swam for his life (we and his wife chuckled) Taken by my other halfTaken by my other half.
The pics of my arm are when I surpassed my self exceptionally!! I went to the loo and grabbed a can of diet cola and then headed back to my other half sitting on the sand.
I walked up the path and past the RNLI Station and headed down the slipway. As you can see from the bruising, it didn’t go too well! I took the name of it literally and slipped spectacularly and landed on my back, however saved myself slightly by taking the full force through my right hand, right arm, shoulder, elbow and back! At least I didn’t hit my head!! If you look closely, you can actually see the striations from the wood in the bruises, showing how hard I fell!!
I have been missing longer than I planned to be, but 2023 was the shittiest year ever.
We lost Macy Grey in May and before I got chance to process it, I had a car crash!
Then, whilst I was in plaster my Dad was diagnosed with mesothelioma, which is a very aggressive cancer caused by asbestos. It was that aggressive it killed my DAD in 9 weeks to the day of diagnosis.
Taken by Dad’s bestie, Alan
I miss him so so much, I feel like a massive part of me is missing. I lost all interest in everything, didn’t want to go out, didn’t want to do any of my hobbies. Even my passion for wildlife and nature suffered. I was just so numb, empty and hollow.
I am starting to defrost a little.
Saw my first starling Murmuration yesterday of 2024. Sadly it won’t let me upload it, so I will load it onto my YouTube channel and then post it.
Also what has kept me going a little are 3 wonderful kitties. Toby a beautiful ginger Tom, half Maine Coon (my neighbours cat) has been to say hello every day since we lost Macy, and he comes for a fuss not treats. Just before Christmas two kittens on the block, Stan & Ollie have been coming over the back garden fence to sat hi, and it’s wonderful, they make me smile.
TobyRare Norfolk Meerkat 😂
I do have some highs too, which I will share, as don’t want all doom and gloom.
We went up North to see family at the beginning of Dec and had some beautiful snow, and we also got to see aurora borealis (northern lights) at my favourite beach, Hartlepool Headland.
Hartlepool #auroraborealis at #hartlepoolheadland
Also, this gorgeous wee fella came into our lives! Meet JASPER
I am really struggling at the moment. I miss my Dad so much, it just makes me cry. It doesn’t feel real, feels surreal.
I’ve ordered myself a grief diary to try and use that.
Dad’s ashes have now been scattered, found out through a back door, which is really crap. We were told his golfing buddies were going to scatter him, but they didn’t, his wife did. No option for me and my brother to have been there.
Grieving for him has been so difficult as there have been so many things going on around emotionally. People’s behaviour and attitudes. Made it worse and harder.
I never really contemplated a day that he wouldn’t be there, even though we get older every year. I guess I maybe contemplated a normal (whatever that is) passing, not taken so quickly by mesothelioma.
Mesothelioma takes no prisoners, it is an aggressive cancer caused by exposure to asbestos. Dad was exposed to it in the 60’s and 70’s during some of his 33 year military service in the Royal Navy, where he was a Chief Engineering Artificer. So, for his good service he got this!!
My Dad never ever complained about pain, even in October 2022 when he almost severed his thumb on a circular saw. During the mesothelioma he was in major pain, we knew because he kept saying it was hurting, so it must have been bad.
The irony of it all was my Dad was diagnosed on his ex’s (my Mam) birthday, and he passed 9 weeks later.
Am glad I got to spend some time with him before, glad I got to get and give him a big hug a week before, and to tell him that I love him, and for him to say “ditto”. I have that and it can’t be tarnished or taken away.
I feel like a big piece of me is missing. To hear his voice one more time… to be given a hug… for him to tell me the Countryfile calendar competition is open…
I’ve had a lot of death over the years, people who are very important to me, but this feels like nothing else ever. 💔
I would have loved Dad to have met Freyja our 11 week old Cavapoo. I think he would have loved her, and she him. He loved our late dog Maisie (cavalier) and pur 2 late cats Spook and Macy, and they all loved him. I do hope they are together.
People say “it gets better, you will get over it, you will learn how to cope, at least he isn’t in pain now” all platitudes I loathe. I don’t want to get over it, it doesn’t get better and as for coping, well how do we cope with everything that is thrown our way? And yes, he isn’t in pain, the only good thing.
Dad I love you and miss you so much xxx
Dad with his fingers in his ears, when serving in the Royal Navy as an Artificer Taken by his best mate AlanL- R: Macy, Maisie and Spook Dad and I in Weymouth Freyja
It’s been almost 3 weeks since we got our little Cavapoo floof, Freyja. Feels like longer!! Let’s of ups and downs, had forgotten how painful puppy chomping is!! My hands are full of wounds and swollen 😂
She has had her 2nd jab done, so on Wednesday she can finally go for her first on the floor walk, but only pavements. In a month she has a booster and 3 weeks later can go anywhere. Really looking forward to that.
Here are some pics.
Helping in the garden Notcutts In the carTeefies Who? Me?Destroyer of Dandelions More teefies
She is such a funny and affectionate little girl, and is so clever. She has picked up her training so well.
Am really missing my Dad so much. Its actually 6 months on the 28th and that is so scary. It just doesn’t feel real, it’s horrible.
Freyja is keeping us on our toes and is an absolute delight and lots of cuteness overload. She has got her 2nd jab on Saturday so will be able to go into the world properly soon after.
Until then we have been taking her around the block (carrying) every day, and she has been to Notcutts for coffee and cake and major fuss from lots of people, which she took in her stride.
Today we took her to Eves Hill Farm 🚜 Shop today and she chose some carrots for her sore teefies. More fuss and now is zonked next to me on the sofa.
Here is some pics.
Freyja sat herself down to watch the sheep on Earth X TV.
I adore the beach and the sea, they are my happy place.
Cindy – I will try and get some Little Owl pics but they are very elusive!
CromerNorfolkBournemouth Bournemouth Bournemouth Robin Hoods Bay Robin Hoods Bay Hartlepool Headland Bournemouth CalshotTitchwell Walcott Sandymouth Bay Sandymouth Bay Maisie enjoying a ride at Walcott. Human slave is AnnaDunwich Dunwich CromerMy mini watercolour Seal pup at Horsey GapHorsey Gap
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